Happy Easter!!!!!!

Happy Easter

Today was a quiet Easter at our house...  It was a magnificent morning slept in until nearly 10 am! Yes, 10 am..  We got up and Jack was raring to go to see what the Easter Bunny had brought.  He was disappointed that the Easter Bunny had not brought the Electric Cadillac he had really wanted, and despite my best efforts, he was not convinced the Easter Bunny was trying to pinch pennies...  We sat on the couch and took turns while Jack fed us chocolate until it was time to get dressed for church.
It really felt well going and being there for Sacrament today.  It was awkward a few times today.  The people were less than receptive and that is fine.. It will not stop me from going.  We haven't been home really since A week and a half after Christmas.  We were back 2 weeks then to Medford after returning from Arizona..  And we are finally here... Craziness..  They must assume we have been skipping out :X

We drove out to our house in Coburg that we really want... I want it soo bad.  It is such a shame.  Justin called because there was a new sign in the window from a Realtor and there were already three bids to the bank.  He called his Dad and he is going to call tomorrow and see..  But its not looking so good... Its a shame.  That would have made the perfect home...  I really love those wooden floors... The apt is another option, we will see, I think we will check that out tomorrow too.. We will see what goes on for now..  I swear If I have to stay here a minute more than I  have to I am going to go insane...
The new lady has been doing her laundry constantly... FUNNY how things work.. :/  Me getting pissy doesn't help me out...

I am still not feeling good.. REally dizzy and I almost blacked out today when I was on the floor trying to get Jack's other black church shoe..

But all in all, the three of us had a good easter together, even if our dinner was Chinese Chicken Salads and strawberries... YUMMY!!!!! :D

Trying

I'm trying to be more positive...  Today is a beautiful day.  Justin had to go in to work this morning ( on his day off ) :/ because he has customers who are "serious buyers"...  Hopefully he will find out one way or the other soon and I will know if today will be another day at home cooped up in this hell hole or if we are going to the river..  I hope for the latter..

It is still quiet..  I can hear faintly cars on the road and my typing..  I love peace in the mornings..  Right now I am reading "Water for Elephants"... I just started and it is surprisingly good.  I just finished "The Five People you meet in Heaven" and it was really good.  I am trying to read more positive, although I do enjoy my entirely crazy forensic true crime stories..

Off to read <3

Undone...

Life keeps unraveling for me...  When I don't think I can take much more, it comes at me, and knocks me back..  I learned some very unsettling (old) news when I was down on the Medford show trip that literally left me in bed for a few days trying to pry myself from the mattress.  Eventually I got up, but its been hard and I have had many days since then that I have stayed in my pajamas and could not cope.  That is as far as I will get into that..

I hate where we live... A few days ago Justin came and got Jack and I after work and showed us a house that was in foreclosure that his Dad had showed him.  It was beautiful and quaint and perfect.  Wooden floors, a rose trailis on the front walk.  Absolute perfect dream home for me.  Unfortunately, without help its impossible.  :(  I wish that were our home..

Last Friday our Cadillac was stolen from the US bank parking lot.  Justin locked the ONLY keys in the car and had to get back to work and it was faster to call a cab than wait for the tow truck guy, so he went back to work.  We planned on getting it the next morning because that night he had to work really late..  We drove by and the car was GONE!!!!!!  He called every tow truck company in town ( well he had to, thats how it works ) before he could file a report..  But he went for a drive and found the car.  Window smashed..  They took everything.  Including my wet clothes, Jack's wet clothes, his new shoes, everything you can think of, etc...   Someone pee'd inside @@.....  Anyway.   The car is back and will be going to the shop to get fixed, all in good time.  And in the meantime, we bought a 1999 Cadillac and its soooo nice!!! :)  I love it!!

Today was Dick ( Justin's Mom's Dad's) Birthday!  I don't even know how old he is... 74? 75?  I have no idea, they had already eaten the cake by the time we got up there.

At least its good Friday... Jack and I talked about that for a little while today..

I am going to try and be more positive..  I haven't been lately, I have been really down and really angry and bittter and that isn't fair to anyone..  I need to stop and take a breath I know...

Jack has been challenging lately and I have had little patience with him..  He was soo bad today, I spanked him four times, and the next time I put him in time out and he whined and carried on after that...

Exorcist Social Degree

I'm already having an "off" day... I happened to glance over at the ads that are to the right of my Facebook and this was one of my sponsored ads.  Now tell me why would I want to go to school for social work to work with children that need to be given a rite of exorcism, even if I can get my degree in under a year?? Good grief!!! Are they not paying attention when some jerk off submits a picture like this or are they really trying to get MY attention??

Monopoly

I looked it up.. Medford is a pretty big sized place. A little more than 75K call it home and in the Metro area there are 2007K. ONE book store. One TINY little Barnes and Noble bookstore in town, if you don't count the Christian bookstore in the mall.
I love Barnes and Noble back home.. They always have a big selection of what I want to look at and we usually get lost in the books..
I will have to say the newest phase in putting a toy store in the books was a brilliant idea on their part. Its such a low, mean dirty trick to pull. The incessant whining of children wanting a toy and the parent just wanting their book, will usually give in and get out of the store before any more damage is done. So far I have won the good fight with Jack. The only thing he has walked away with from there are some books and flash cards. I told him "This is a book store, we buy BOOKS here, not toys"
So, when a few days ago I was recommended a good book that was pending release I was excited. I got ready early and Jack and I hit the mall early... We went straight to Target to see if they had the book ( they carry a small selection). Negative on that. So, we shopped and did some errands we had to do and then decided that we were going to call Barnes and Noble.
The "Barney" on the phone was cranky. I asked him if he had my book on the shelf "The Chronology Of Water". He punched some keys and said nope its not out, ohh yeah it was released today but we don't have it."
What do you say to that.. Of course I replied "So, is there a reason it was not stocked". He gave me none. Told me I could order it. I asked if there were more books stores he said no, in Ashland. I replied with "WOW, your quite the Monopoly!" which really pissed him off and he recommended I come in and figure it out.. Great customer service. So, no book. I am hoping Eugene will have it when I get home, other wise I will just have to order it from them.. For now its "The Dead Janitors Club" to read.. ( Its a comedic memoir ).....